Mashup of stuff I wrote about a potential thérapeutical use of 3-Meo-PCP

The more I think about this dissociation thing, the more I realize that it doesn't have anything to do with depression, but rather with trauma, or traumatic experience of some kind.

(It's all very fuzzy and imagined in my head at the moment of course, and as usual I'm nothing more than my own experimental panel).

I had just written this paragraph during a dialectical report trip

"I like the way you talk about dissociatives, it doesn't just seem to go in multiples of two ahah, under 3-meo-pcp & iboga I found myself like a taut scar-wire whose fiery, almost black vibration of incredible density created without ever stopping"

The scar-wire I'm talking about is the gaping wound of our relationship with the Other.

2 days ago I came across this video of a comedian who, I think, illustrates the point in a certain way

https://youtu.be/tFUvmZWf4hI?si=x95xUdMlyx-RSfEE

Oh yes, there's also something to be said for dissos and depression in my experience, and that's that you have to understand that Ké doesn't treat depression induced by Ké abuse.

So for me, for therapeutic use, it's a potential tool, okay, but it doesn't work on its own.

Recreational and intensive use of dissos strongly triggers depression

After that, it's up to me (because my practices are quite extreme and I'm obviously not following anyone's life project) but where I've felt the most therapeutic potential is with the iboga + 3-meo-pcp + phenylamine or tryptamine combo, the radically powerful and relatively short experience (quite the opposite of something like memantine or even ketamine in a way) of 3-meo-pcp preventing depression (but with a strong addictive potential, so triggering manic phases etc. which are the panacea for a depressive period, ok) and iboga & tryptamine providing a form of psychotherapeutic depth.

After all, I clearly don't have the skills or even sufficient data to attempt to set up any kind of protocol, and that's not my ambition at all ahah, I'm just talking about how I feel about the potential use of certain substances.

That's why I don't talk about this kind of stuff in public ahah

I hate it when people start copying me in my drug mess, there's no fucking sense in doing that!

But it frustrates me this fear or ignorance about iboga among users, when this stuff has so much potential in my opinion

I've read a lot about thought systems and rituals, how they're constructed, etc. (and then studied it through the academic prism of anthropology), but I've never done anything other than cobble together my own system to be able to take it.

Besides, I've been eating iboga once a week for almost 10 years ahah, I just ended up integrating the thing without ever taking anything out of it to talk about it or even further to give it to someone else, I'd have no idea how to do that 🥲

Sometimes I'm sent opiate addicts in the US world to discuss adaptogenic use, but that's it, and really I just stick to the basics of risk prevention.

Manic is the rebound of dépression

Iboga is the Photoshop of the Mind